Borba sa ahamkarom

Jogi se bori sa ahamkarom – sa prepoznavanjem sebe kao onoga koji dela svojim telom, emocijama, mišlju i rečju. To nadvladavane ahamkare je pročišćenje antakarana – unutarnjih instrumenata – manas, budi, ćite i ahamkare. Ljudima je to neizrecivo teško, ali je tragaocima logično i izvodivo. Ono što je i njima često nerazumljivo, i zato nedostižno, je prevazilaženje nivoa aham – nedelatnog nivoa identiteta sa svojim ličnim Ja. To – Ja, iako je slobodno od delanja još uvek je utemeljeno u sebi kao individui. Taj se nivo zarobljenosti ne može prevazići bez bezuslovne žudnje za istinom, slobodom, samospoznajom ili bogom. Aham – ja jesam, rastače se samo ako su nam istina, sloboda, samospoznaja ili bog važniji od nas samih – ako su nam ti ideali život sam. Samo neizmerna čistota žudnje za celovitošću transcendentira poslednju kapiju neznanja – abiniveša vriti, strah od gubitka sebe.

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Struggle with Ahamkara

Yogi is struggling with ahamkara – by recognizing himself as someone who works with his body, emotions, mind and word. The overcoming of ahamkara is purification of antakaranas – inner instruments – manas, buddi, chitta and ahamkara. It is incredibly difficult for people, but it is logical and possible for seekers. What is often incomprehensible even to them, and therefore unattainable, that is overcoming of aham level – non-doing level of identity with one’s own “me”. That “me”, although free from action, it is still grounded in itself as an individual. That level of captivity can not be overcome without the unconditional desire for truth, freedom, self-realization or God. Aham – I am, dissolves only if the truth, freedom, self-realization or God are more important for us than ourselves – if these ideals present the life itself for us. Only the immense purity of desire for wholeness transcends the last gate of ignorance – abhinivesha vritti, fear of loss of self.

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